July 2009
1 post
© ffffound.
While I feel I have friends that share my same likes and dislikes (how ridiculously obvious of me), I seem to miss the people that understand my affinity for simple things.
I like to feel sleepy next to glaring stoplights and have philosophical conversations that mean nothing. I like collecting things in jars, pressed flowers, and foggy windows. I like somber days, and I like...
May 2009
1 post
March 2009
3 posts
3 tags
change. it’s a wonderful thing. look, you know how subatomic particles don’t obey physical laws? they act according to chance, chaos, coincidence. they run into each other in the middle of the universe somewhere and bang! energy! we’re the same as that. that’s the great thing about the universe: unpredictable. that’s why it’s so much fun.
– skins,...
2 tags
The mind is a funny thing when in an altered state. Imagine feeling like you have to look over your shoulder when nothing and no one is there, trying to keep your balance while you stumble left and right from center, and lucidly dreaming about lying down on a fluffy cloud, feeling quite tingly like static sparkling on your skin, as you spin slowly like you’re on a merry-go-round.
Oh, and...
1 tag
I feel sad, and it feels heavy on my chest. It probably doesn’t help that I’m sick now. There’s something going around. I harbor ill will and ill thoughts that I can’t talk about here at all. My little sister knows. My family tree was briefly outlined for me in words, and I am contemptuous and ashamed. Pressure. There is an abundance in that.
I am genuinely worried,...
February 2009
7 posts
1 tag
Peanut, pre-accident. Look how happy her ugly mug was! Now, she’s just depressing and cowardly, and Cesar Millan would probably say our affections to her current behavior is only encouraging the way she acts: frightened, paranoid, and neurotic. Like me! Never say that the TV is not chock-full of useful information.
Anyway, I feel this picture is appropriate to show how funny I think...
1 tag
leave your things behind ‘cause it’s all going off without you – let go, frou frou
You know what’s depressing? When you have something taken away out of selfishness for something better, something new. And I can’t blame her, really. It’s hers and not mine. I’m just bitter, and I think I’m allowed to be sad and huffy about it. Sure, I’m...
for isolated nostalgia in the dark
because this is all about love (act 5, nell) shake well, i won’t tell (ghostwriter, headphone) the nights are getting long (wwxii, the damnwells) i don’t dare to try again (halloween, meg & dia) i’m floating away (too good to be true, sioen)
My current playlist that I have on repeat. They are really good, particularly – well,...
We opted out of the pillow fighting bonanza in the city because of the indecisive weather, although we regretted it afterwards because it would have been muy fun to slap each other with feathered pillows in the rain. So instead we went to Rina’s apartment and had our own pillow fight that lasted – oh, about a minute tops, because somebody’s stomach started gurgling.
Instead, Nikki...
I am starting to think that I have been watching way too many Asian dramas than is healthy for me. You know, American soaps (not that I watch these, oh-em-gee) and series have nothing on Asian media. Actually, it has nothing on British media either. Or maybe I’ve been living in the U.S. for too long and have grown weary of the garbage that television stations are feeding my slowly...
4 tags
Ever since I managed to get my grubby hands on a DSLR, my film camera fell to the wayside, stored (albeit not forgotten) in this cabinet full of CDs and old piano sheets. Actually, you’d be surprised what I have kept in there – art supplies, pens … nail polish? Um, sure.
So I underestimated film because of the wait time and money (if only I could invest in a dark room!), but I...
2 tags
you know war -
if you’re going to try, go all the way. otherwise don’t even start. this could mean losing girlfriends, wives, relatives, jobs. and maybe your mind. it could mean not eating for three or four days. it could mean freezing on a park bench. it could mean jail. it could mean derision. it could mean mockery, isolation. isolation is the gift. all the others are a test of your...